My First

From the wife:

I feel my view of sex NOW is fairly healthy but I’ve learned that it’s as evolving as a rotating door. I grew up in as normal environment as most middle class people. I had a loving married mom and dad and three siblings. My two older siblings are my half brother and sister so they had a little different upbringing then my younger sister and I did. My older sister and brother were very wild and I chose not to be that way. My dad was kind of strict but not unfair. I didn’t really have a curfew and I had a great set of friends that my parents trusted and they also trusted me.

I never dated in high school. Not one date. It wasn’t because I wasn’t allowed to date but boys just looked at me as friend material and looking back I realize I was just a “goody goody.” I was worried about what people thought of me and I didn’t want to disappoint my parents. My self esteem was low because I’ve always been overweight and I just wasn’t interested in the boys that were interested in me.

Then I moved away from home to go to college. I learned to be much more of a free spirit. Where in high school I didn’t party and boys were not interested in me, college was much different. People were interested in me because I was from somewhere far away that no one had ever been to and always wanted to go. I felt unique and special in a good way for the first time with my peers then the same town I grew up my first 18 years in. I came out of my shell and literally had a few drinks and relaxed a little, not worrying in disappointing anyone because I was on my own.

I didn’t have my first kiss until I was nineteen. Nineteen was a busy year for me. My first kiss, my first real boyfriend, my first breakup my second boyfriend and my first sexual experience.

My husband was not my first boyfriend but he was my first real relationship. He made me feel beautiful, comfortable and smart. There isn’t any guess why he was my first. He was handsome and funny and just so smart.

He and I had fun growing our relationship with one another with few hardships along the way in the beginning. I didn’t realize he had these secret kinks. Lets just say when I found out…I was a bit…shocked and concerned. I will write a post about that next time.